Life is some complicated shit.

torsdag 20 mars 2014

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0:Height
5'7
1:Virgin?
no
2:Shoe size
38 (7)
3:Do you smoke?
yes
4:Do you drink?
sometimes
5:Do you take drugs?
absolutely not
6:Age you get mistaken for
Idk, 18? I dont really get mistaken for any age so i guess that would be 17...
7:Have tattoos?
yes, one in the back of my neck
8:Want any tattoos?
yeah loads.
9:Got any piercings?
yeah, one in my belly button
10:Want any piercings?
yes, in my tongue
11:Best friend?
Elise <3
12:Relationship status
Single as fuck.
13:Biggest turn ons
Big lips and cuddles
14:Biggest turn offs
bad kisses.
15:Favorite movie
Anastasia
16:I’ll love you if
... you make Justin Bieber fall in love with me.
17:Someone you miss
My grandpa.
18:Most traumatic experience
dont feel like bringing this up here because it's really bad.
19:A fact about your personality
I'm very shy when i'm sober but once I'm drunk, I'll talk to anybody and literally in any language.
20:What I hate most about myself
my body
21:What I love most about myself
my eyes.
22:What I want to be when I get older
I want to travel a lot. Possibly get famous in some way.
23:My relationship with my sibling(s)
.. non existant
24:My relationship with my parent(s)
Shit.
25:My idea of a perfect date
I'd be happy with a dinner and a movie basically. But i would definitely like something more romantic at home or something, watching a movie. But the best date ever would be like on some romantic place with the guy and flowers... i want flowers.
26:My biggest pet peeves
loud eaters.
27:A description of the girl/boy I like
He's got cute hair, green eyes, He's pretty long and he's really cute.
28:A description of the person I dislike the most
He's darkhaired and he's an asshole.
29:A reason I’ve lied to a friend
To not make her sad.
30:What I hate the most about work/school
the homeworks, as if the 5-8 hours in school weren't enough?
31:What your last text message says
"How would i know?"
32:What words upset me the most
Disappointment and failure
33:What words make me feel the best about myself
beautiful
34:What I find attractive in women
I dont really play for that team. but the hair, i guess.
35:What I find attractive in men
Definitely big lips and nice hair.
36:Where I would like to live
America
37:One of my insecurities
I'm fat.
38:My childhood career choice
Singer
39:My favorite ice cream flavor
Chocolate fudge brownie
40:Who wish I could be
Selena Gomez
41:Where I want to be right now
anywhere but here. Out of this country would be good.
42:The last thing I ate
Macaronis
43:Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately
Justin Bieber
44:A random fact about anything
I'm turning 18 in just a couple of months.

lördag 28 december 2013

2013

Looking back on 2013 (pls)

1:What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before?
I started taking pills to help me sleep.
2:Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
no I didn't
I should stop smoking, lose a whole lot of weight and stop being a pussy.
3:Did anyone close to you give birth?
yeah, My aunt.
4:Did anyone close to you die?
unfortunately
5:What countries did you visit?
England, Italy, Denmark and Sweden.
6:What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013
a good body and some confidence.
7:What dates from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
april 20 & 22 and may 30th
8:What was your biggest achievement of the year?
getting through first year of school.
9:What was your biggest failure?
school. life.
10:Did you suffer illness or injury?
yeah. i had the flu and i was sick a few times.
11:What was the best thing you bought?
makeup.
12:Whose behaviour merited celebration?
my best friends
13:Whose behaviour made you appalled?
my parents
14:Where did most of your money go?
traveling and makeup
15:What did you get really, really, really excited about?
the janoskians meet and greet
16:What song will always remind you of 2013?
wake me up - Avicii
17:Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer?
(A) sadder
(B) fatter
(C) richer
18:What do you wish you’d done more of?
smile
19:What do you wish you’d done less of?
cry
20:How did you spend Christmas?
with my family
21:Did you fall in love in 2013?
no, I was in love while entering it and I still am.
22:What was your favourite TV program?
The Carrie diaries
23:Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
yeah.
24:What was the best book you read?
I dont read books.
25:What was your greatest musical discovery?
idk
26:What did you want and get?
I wanted a Camera and i got a camera.
27:What did you want and not get?
A phone
28:What was your favourite film of this year?
The Believe movie
29:What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
idk
30:How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?
take whatever's clean and matching with the jeans, because youre fucking late
31:What kept you sane?
my best friend
32:Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Justin Bieber, Harry Style
33:What political issue stirred you the most?
nothing really.
34:Who did you miss?
Him.
35:Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013.
Stay true to who you are.
36:Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Story of my life, i take her home. I drive all night to keep her warm, and time is broken.

måndag 18 november 2013

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Violate My Privacy.

1. Did you wake up cranky?
yes
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
absolutely.
3. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
girls, i'm very awkward around boys.
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
yes, to be polite.
5. Can you commit to one person?
yup.
6. How do you look right now?
like shit.
7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
sweatpants & a crewneck sweat shirt, underwear and 2 pairs of socks.
8. How often do you listen to music?
all the time.
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
i'd say its pretty equal.
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014?
hopefully.
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
in between.
12. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
"oh..."
13. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
i'm a pro.
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
not yet.
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
yes, I do.
16. Are you going out of town soon?
tomorrow?
17. When was the last time you cried?
Last night.
18. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
i guess.
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
yes, i want brown eyes.
20. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
go to school.
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
being at home.
22. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
No, i dont think so.
23. Are you nice to everyone?
No, but i'm trying.
24. What are you sitting on right now?
my bed.
25. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
yes.
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
way too many times.
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
my mom.
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
yep :(
29. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
no
30. Does anyone hate you?
i'm not really sure.
31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Yes.
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
I do, if i'm not alone
33. Are you a jealous person?
yes
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
2011
35. Did you have a dream last night?
yes.
36. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
yes
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
hopefully not.
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
i dont think so.
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
i doubt that.
40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
no.
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
nope #foreveralone.
42. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
nothing like it.
43. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
talking or something.
44. What’s the best part about school?
my friends.
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
yes.
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
haha yeah
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
sometimes
48. Were you single over the last summer?
yes.
49. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
studying
50. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
no.

lördag 9 november 2013

The thing about this blog is that nobody reads it, i'm pretty sure all of my friends forgot about it because i don't talk about it.
so, why not get all the dirty little secrets out of my little mind?

- im suicidal.
- my dad drinks way too much
- i sing when i can't talk about my feelings
- I drink alcohol whenever i need to forget something
- i'm broken
- i take at least 3 pain killers each day.
- When going through a breakup, i once cut an "E" into my hand because and i really regret it.
- i'm very good at pushing people away
- im scared to be alone

tisdag 22 oktober 2013

1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
nope, i'd die and i would be so much more stressed.
2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?
sinlge and confused i guess.
3: What if I told you that you were pretty?
I'd be happy
4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?
Nope.
5: Are you interested in anyone right now?
Only celebrities...
6: What are you looking forward to in the next week?
a week off of school! :D
7: Do you want to be single?
sometimes i do, sometimes i dont.
8: Did you go out or stay in last night?
stay in
9: How late did you stay up last night?
i fell asleep around 2 am i think.
10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?
Yeah, it was a while ago.
11: Last three things you had to drink?
Water, Juice and an Arizona
12: Have you pretended to like someone?
haha yeah.
13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?
i think so.
14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
yup, my best friend.
15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?
yes.
16: Think back five months ago, were you single?
haha yeah, forever alone.
17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
I started my math class and was basically mind fucked for an hour.
18: Hold hands with anyone this week?
no
19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
no
20: What would you name your future daughter?
Acacia or Alison
21: Do you miss anyone?
Yes.
22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?
nope.
23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?
no, it didn't
24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Sometimes.
25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Yes,
26: Who did you last see in person?
My mom
27: Are you listening to music right now?
Yes
28: What is something you currently want right now?
Ice cream, Justin Bieber and Harry Styles.
29: What is the last thing you said out lot?
good night
30: How is your heart lately?
confusing
31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
yup
32: Are you wearing socks?
always
33: What do people call you?
Felicia or felle
34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
no
35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?
School is stressful
36: Who did you last share a bed with?
Elise, my best friend
37: Did you do something bad today?
no, i dont think so
38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
last week?
39: Do you get stressed out easily?
yeah
40: Will you sing today?
already did
41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?
yes, way too many times
42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?
Elise or my aunt
43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?
to
44: What are you listening to right now?
hold tight by justin bieber
45: What is wrong with you right now?
hahahaha i dont know. a lot.
46: What is on your wrists right now?
Nothing
47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?
At Gina Tricot
48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?
neither, but if i have to choose, i'd choose hot chocolate
49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?
yes
50: Are you a good artist?
haha no, i'm an awful artist.
51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?
no, it sucks.
52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?
no, not at all.
53: Ever been on a golf cart?
yes
54: Do you have trust issues?
yeah...
55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?
yes, with my ex boyfriend
56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?
no, but i like their stuff
57: Do you use chap stick?
yes. gotta keep dem lips moisturized.
58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
yeah, but not seriously.
59: Do you have a little sister?
no :(
60: Have you ever been to New York?
No :'(
61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
yeah, i do.
62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?
yeah
63: What were you doing at midnight last night?
texting
64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
no.
65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
yes
66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?
Nope they werent
67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?
no
68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
with someone.
69: Will next Friday be a good one?
hopefully.